Elissa Janine Hoole - The Memory JarExpected publication: April 8th, 2016 by Flux
Genres: Realistic Fiction, Young Adult
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Since the accident, Taylor's memory has been fuzzy. But at least she's awake. Who knows what her boyfriend, Scott, will remember when he comes out of the coma. Will he remember that Taylor was driving the snowmobile when it crashed? Will he remember the engagement ring? Her pregnancy?
Will he remember that she tried to break up with him?
Taylor doesn't know. And she doesn't know if she wants him to remember. Plenty of things happened that night and before—secrets wrapped in secrets—that she'd prefer be forgotten.
Facing choices she'd rather ignore, Taylor searches for something more solid than whispers and something bigger than blame to face the future and forgive herself.
~Not quite sure where to start.
Something I'd first like to distinguish, though. In all - if not most - of the pregnancy YAs I've ever read, the girls are automatically willing to keep their babies, practically glowing with their unexpected news, and happily picking out names for their future
When Taylor discovers she's pregnant, she's absolutely destroyed, she saw herself doing so much more with life. so when she proceeds to tell her boyfriend, Scott, he delivers the atypical "We used a condom" speech before springing a proposal on her. For whatever reason, Scott and Taylor decide to take a snowmobile ride among the slopes without their helmets, then crash. Taylor is mostly fine. Scott, however, hits his head on hard ice. For a long while, the accident remains hazy to Taylor. She visits Scott day after day as he lays in a coma, shares old stories with him, and frequently quarrels with his younger brother, Joey.
At first, I didn't like Taylor. At all. She was bratty and indecisive. She picked at Scott's little nothings. And whenever she divulged an insecurity, I got to the point where I was like, "Get over yourself. GET OVER YOURSELF." But as she shared deeper, my heart clenched.
We learn more about Scott through flashbacks: the THEN. To be fair, he seemed like a pretty decent guy, especially with all the topsy-turvy roads Taylor led him through.
While awaiting updates on Scott's health, she and Scott's brother, Joey, build a sort-of connection. Yeah, I know. This isn't something I normally like, believe me. I think someone pouncing on a sibling/cousin/possible brother-in-law while their babe is comatose is the nastiest, but I kinda shipped it? I'm not sure how to thoroughly explain without spoilers. Joey was a sweetheart. Like Danny from Full House.
Back to Taylor. I liked her. Well, actually, she grew on me. She's realistic. She suffers. She's relatable. She's someone who touches the heart. One minute, I felt like laughing at the absurdity of her jokes, then in the next, she shared her heavier insecurities and ambitions, I could've reached into the book and squeezed her into a hug. What a star of an MC.
If I can criticize anything - though it's something very, very minor - it's probably chapter length. The chapters are short and POVs are exchanged frequently. Occasionally, a side-character was thrown their own chapter, and I think this should've simply remained Taylor's story.
Otherwise, I very much like the story. It's not for the faint heart. The ending was so, so devastating but so breathtakingly honest. Add this to your TBR ASAP.